"You can take life's knocks."


So, here we are. The dreaded introductory post. Where I tell you why I’m starting this blog, what I’ll be writing about, and what it all means to me. For starters, I’m going to explain the title of this blog. It comes from a quote from one of my favorite movies, Le fabuleux destin d'Amélie Poulain. It’s a wonderful french film, and the quote goes (translated), "So, little Amelie, your bones are not made of glass. You can take life's knocks. If you let this chance go by, eventually your heart will become as dry and brittle as my skeleton. So...Go and get him, for pete's sake!" The first time I ever watched this movie, I cried my eyes out at the end. And it’s a really happy ending! But I cried because I related so much to Amelie, and to the understated yet overwhelming struggle of feeling things so deeply yet being unable to express those big thoughts and emotions to other people. My whole life, I’ve felt extremely fragile. I’m tall and thin, so there’s the physical aspect, but there’s also my lifetime struggle with anxiety. Normal things are sometimes daunting to me, and it makes me feel like this wisp of a human being who can’t do anything without being knocked over. That’s why this quote means the world to me. Because even though my anxiety makes things difficult for me, my bones are not made of glass. I can take life’s knocks. And I will. Here at the very beginning of 2015, I really only have one resolution. To stop letting anxiety control my life. And I know it’s not going to be easy. I am not always going to be successful. But I’m sick of letting the possibility of an anxiety attack prevent me from going out, doing things, and experiencing life. So that’s what this blog is going to be about. My journey to continue to make things and experience more of the world. This is where the description of this blog comes in. “Times are hard for dreamers,” is another Amelie quote that is of great importance to me. I consider myself a dreamer. A creator. I want to make everything: paintings, videos, short films, novels, and even blogs! And that’s not an easy life to lead. But I’m going to try and try and try, because I can’t imagine myself doing anything else. 

So now that you know a little about why I started this blog, you should know a little about me. My name is Fran, I’m 19, and I live in Central New York, where the winter blues can occupy your soul for the majority of the year if you let them. Over the past year, I’ve been on this incredible (and at times difficult) journey. In January of 2014 I started working at my local library, which is the most perfect job I could’ve ever asked for. I also began pursuing a longtime dream of mine: to make videos on the Internet. I’ve made friends on YouTube, gained a (surprising) following, honed my skills, learned a lot, and (most importantly) have gotten so much better at it. I started working on my third novel, which is about a 19 year old girl who is trying to figure out if college is the right path for her, and through that process came to grips with the fact that I don’t think it’s right for me. In 2014, I finally started to accept myself, love myself, and become the person I’ve always wanted to be. I got a pixie cut, a hairstyle I’ve wanted for YEARS, and now feel more confident than I have in my entire life. 2014 was mostly about growth. 2015, I feel, is going to finally be about actually DOING the things. I finally feel ready to go after what I’ve always wanted. As of now, I’m one week away from releasing my first short film, which I filmed over Christmas break in an empty coffee shop with my best friends. I’m still working on my novel, and if I had to use one word to describe myself right now, it would be determined. So if there’s one thing I want you readers to take away from this blog, it’s that you can do it. You can. Don’t let anything stop you from getting what you want. 

You can take life’s knocks. 
Thank you for reading, and I hope you follow my journey.
 -Fran